Poem #40: Playing with Fire

Never play with fire,
When you’re air.
Keeping it ablaze
Will make it worse.

Never play with fire,
When you’re earth.
Forcing it to bow down
Will destroy it slowly.

Never play with fire,
When you’re water.
Drenching it with your all
Will kill it forever.

Only play with fire
When you, too, are fire.
Dancing together in heat
Will keep it alive and beating.

Written on 01/27/2015

Poem #39: Lost Dance

It’s 1:30am and I couldn’t sleep.

I remember that moment
When you went up and said
“Dance with me.”

I looked up at your smiling face
That I fell in love with.
“Sure,” I said.

They played this song.

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

I wrapped my arms around your neck,
Yours on my waist,
the closest we’d ever been.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I’m getting old and I need someone to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

Slowly, we swayed to the song
About love found but lost —
A premonition, perhaps.

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of?

I rest my forehead on yours,
Our faces too close for anything
Besides kissing.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I’m getting old and I need someone to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I whispered, “Thank you.”
You asked, “For what?”
I kissed you.

And if you have a minute, why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
Why don’t we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know

I felt you smiling
And kissing me back,
Holding me tighter.

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I’m getting old and I need someone to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

It was the beginning of the end.
You had to go and made
no promise to take me with you.

And if you have a minute, why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
Why don’t we go somewhere only we know?

Is it because you truly loved me?
Is it because I’m so far away?
Is it because we never really had a chance to see?

This could be the end of everything.
Why don’t we go somewhere only we know?

I want you to know that
you’re always here
In my heart.

Somewhere only we know

I cry.

Dying that night in an accident
Hurt me, haunted me, cursed me
With pain, with memories, with a love

That I never got to receive.
That I never got to give.
That you never got to take.
That you never gave back.

I look at the sky
And pray to see your smile
Even just for a while.

Somewhere in this universe
I know there is still a place
That only we know.

Somewhere only we know.

*Written on 01/11/2015, from 1:00am to 2:30am. Inspired by Keane’s ‘Somewhere Only We Know’

Poem #38: Exiting through the Rabbit Hole

A paradox made by my inner mind says this:
You don’t love me but I am the one you miss.

Because you continue to offer me your world
But I am not the only one you hold.

I only see you in dreams of my dreams
Where everything and nothing is as it seems.

You once said over tea and treacle:
“The older we become, the madder we get!”

I watch you dance with her gaily.
It is a celebration of celebrations.

I must have gone bonkers, broke my head.
I must have one too many falls.

Particularly this fall.

She is your heart’s sovereign.
I am merely a guest in it.

*Originally untitled, written on 09/27/2014 with stanzas 1, 2, and 3 in another order (2-3-1), revisited and revised on 01/07/2015

Poem #37: Sea of Lost Stars

In a sea of lost stars,
I simply wish to be found
by someone who would see
my inner glow
my inner strength
as the sun and others
shine brighter than I.

In a sea of lost stars,
I hope to be cherished
by someone who would care
if I stop glowing
if I stop fighting
as the sun and others
keep getting stronger than I.

In a sea of lost stars,
I pray to be watched
by someone who would look
behind a curtain
behind a cloud
as the sun and others
are bigger than I.

But what if someone is not there?

In a sea of lost stars,
I will find my heart
to keep on moving
I shall keep my soul
from wavering
I pray for strength
for tomorrow.

*Originally called Lost Stars, written on 11/21/2014, revised on 01/07/2015 for posting

Poem #36: Casual Conversations

I said your name with such joy
During those moments when we live
as the sunshine embraced us.

I cried your name with despair
In that one moment in September
when oceans began to separate us.

I sang your name with loneliness
In every ticking moment since then
as memories of us began to fade.

I whisper your name with emptiness
As I let go of the red thread of fate
watching it dance with the winds of change.

**Original is written on 11/19/2014, re-written on 01/07/2015.

Poem #35: In Verona, I Whisper to the Sky

At the very least, I know
that I loved you truly,
deeply,
desperately,
for all time.

You know that too.

At most, I know
that I will never be truly,
deeply,
desperately
yours.

I also know
that you’ll never be truly,
deeply,
desperately
mine.

You know that too.

Is this what star-crossed lovers are?

*written sometime in early September while working and completed on September 29, in hopes of putting more stuff in this blog LOL

Poem #34: A List of Things We are Not

Strangers who cross paths often in the same social circles
Acquaintances upon the introduction of a common friend
Friends after hanging out for a while
Good friends through “thick and thin, until the end”
Probably something a bit more than friends
Two people who hold hands
Two people who like spending a lot of time together
Two people no one understands
Two people who argue and make up on the same day
Two people who finally embrace
Two people who hold each other too close for comfort
Two people who make each other’s heart race
Two people who keep secrets from the world but not each other
Two people who kiss lightly
Two people society doesn’t accept
Two people who let go and kiss passionately
Two people who lie together
Two people who look at stars
Two people who get bashed for love
Two people who wish they could be in Mars
Two people who kiss goodnight
Two people who see each other at dawn
Two happy people
Two people the world doesn’t own
Two people other people hated
Two people living in a crazy stupid world
Two sad people
Two angry people
Two people whose love is bashed
Two people arguing in a car
Two people whose car has crashed

In this limbo, there are no need for labels.

*written on September 29, 2014